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Can everyone just stop making such a fucking big deal out of New Years Eve please.

It’s fucking annoying because you get one of these every year, what makes this one so different? You’re just going to keep living your shitty lives the exact same way, until this point next year, when you, quote “NEW YEAR NEW ME!”

No. Fuck off. Stop expecting people or events to change you, and do them yourself.

And it’s always some shitty rave or party, that ends up being so hyped up, that it turns shit. 

Anyways, happy new year guys, I hope you do whatever you want to do, I’m hoping to start a webcomicy thing in the new year :) so that’s my resolution done.

I’m not usually one to complain….(oh who am I kidding, I love it!) Aha, but, I’m actually genuinely upset. Because it looks like, at the moment, that my supposed “best” friend didn’t even invite me to her birthday dinner. Or failed to mention it to me.

“That’s not a big deal” you would say. Well maybe I am overreacting a bit, but there is more. This person, who I have stood by for the past four years, I have met her family, spent every birthday with (meaning that she ALWAYS invited me before), has seemingly decided that she would rather replace me with her “new friends”. Friends she has only met a year ago, and are worthy of making her forget all about the friend (me!) that has been with her through every tear, laugh, smile, anger, boredom, EVERY EMOTION YOU COULD POSSIBLY HAVE. I’ve seen her transform from a young girl into a woman I suppose, and vice versa. We were like sisters. I guess I knew we were drifting apart, but not like this. Its time I got the message I suppose. Its not as if I even mind the people she invited! One of them is suppose to be a good friend of mine! I just don’t understand why she didn’t even tell me.

I should have expected this. But wow, I didn’t realise how much that would actually hurt :’(

But then…..I think fuck you. You don’t deserve me, treat your friends better you slag, otherwise you’re going end up losing them all.

I’ll say this once.

God I wish I was pretty. 

God maybe I should just end it all now? I’m actually completely useless at everything. I can’t even talk properly. The simplest fucking thing and I can’t even do it.